Wtf~...
Lol~... can't believe i'm actually blogging again...
Been more than 1 year since i did this.
lol, must be those girls in my class~.
Well, 5 in the morning, a cup of coffee and a stick of cig.
So like wat i used to do.
Guess i didn't change much.
Wonder if i still have any REAL visitors.
Well, i'm just bored i guess.
=)
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Bored.
BOred.
BORed.
BOREd.
BORED!!!
Yeah...tt's how bored i am~....
Man~.
Well, not like life's been bad to me~...
Nor has it been very nice to me too~.
My new maid juz arrived.
How nice.
My room's like real neat nowadays~... so it's like kinda cool~... i mean, i don always have a neat room~, ya noe...
Can like sumone juz help me to stop feeling bored...
Man, i need help.
Me. You.
' Don't give up the entire forest for a tree. '
' It's all just a game. '
' Love not one, but a thousand. '
' You didn't lose it. Can't lose what you never had. '
I know all this.
And i still have more.
' Love is a burden to all. '
' Brothers are like blood. Women are like clothes. '
' There's no beginning if there's no ending. '
But i just can't do it.
All this time, there's no difference. It's still there.
The love.
The love of me towards her.
The love i wish for in the morning when i open my eyes.
The love i was willing to pay everything i have for.
The love i dream for in the night and day-dream in the day.
The love i see her expressing towards another.
The love that i never had the courage to show till she was gone.
The love.
And...
The pain.
The pain of one's heart being crushed.
The pain of seeing her in another's arm.
The pain of seeing another bringing her to the beach.
The pain of seeing another's name in her inbox.
The pain of seeing another being her one and only 'the one'.
The pain of thinking if i was the 'another'.
The pain.
And so, i ask myself.
'Why?'
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..
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And i ponder upon this for as long as the night last.
.
..
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' Am i not suppose to be happy for her?'
' Isn't love all suppose to be noble, unselfish and giving without taking?
' And then why am i not happy?
All I ask of her is that she should feel gently towards me.
When my heart feels kindly towards her.
And there should be the soft, soft tremor as of unheard bells between us.
In which it is all I ask for is a answer to my question.
Was it too much?
And more question came.
" Was it wrong for me to love? "
" Was i never meant to love? "
" Or was it all wrong from the start, when Cupid played a fool of me, making our fate interwinded, and made me think that you were my destiny, my love? "
And the answer dawn on me.
I would care less if it was wrong from the start, Cupid having fun or that you were just playing around.
I didn't love you because it was right.
I love you.
But i know.
There will never be a happy ending in this story of you and i.
Many other more chapters will unfold in your life and my.
Maybe miracles will happen, where you and i will share another story, and hopefully then i will really make very moment with you a everlasting one.
I will hope for it, but until then, this will be the closure for you and i.
我终于还是说了一句我爱你
还记得那个微凉夜里天空正飘着小雨心跳的声音
像舞动奇迹
你看着我说千万不要爱上你
因为你只会让我伤心别傻了快点喊停你那么冷静
忽远又忽近
我知道我对你来说也许太年轻
我想我猜我问我终于了解原来为爱流的眼泪
也是种甜蜜滋味
只想爱你
当我和你走在一起就已经决定
不看不听不问也不会放弃
是你让我了解自己
可以为爱那么坚定
只想爱你
好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你
我知道我偶尔有一点任性不管你做任何决定
究竟爱我还是逃避
Sorry
我还是不会放弃爱你
Dedicated to you.
=)
Yeah, a post after about~....i tink 2 months~???
Lol, yeah, i'll juz admit. I DID have the time to update, but i didn't~... =)
Well, thgh i did say i have the time, it did not mean i slack off during this time, kay?!
Been reli bz lahz~... but have settle most thing liao~.
MMF project, DBF project, C Comm exam.... yeah, have finish most of the ITE impt stuff liao~... except for a few councillor thingy i have to tie up~.... ( YES!!! I'm back in the council~ :) )
Also being going to clubs this two months~....lol, like a frequent like that~....haha~.... of coz, lots of things happen there too~, but i ain't reli gonna start on them lahz~. I noe most of my readersz here don't support me going to club~.
Anyway, today izz more of an update such that my blog don die lahz~....lol.
So, not reli a long one, but becoz i realise there are still ppl who frequent my blog, so many thanks to u guys!!!
=)
[ p.s Man, been reli sick this past two days, hopefully can recover by tml~....(CLUBBING!!!!!!!!!)]
No Free Music = My MP3?!
Yeah, so as everyone knows~... recently, three men, aged 16 to 22, were arrested at their homes last week for distributing mp3 music files, the
FIRST time the police have targeted home internet users who distribute digital music but
Do Not Profit from it.
Whew~.... tt's scary, i mean~...i too
USED(*jus in case got police read my blog~...loL) to download songs~... wah, but like this hor....reli starting to scare me~....
(*Anybody knows how the police traces??? Juz curious~.)
I mean, for my case, i tink they juz anyhow go to any hse that owns a computer and have internet, say wanna check the com, and,
Ta Dah!!! $20K fine!!! sure got one~...lol~, i mean...i tink anyone who possesed a com n the means to connect to the Net probably will have downloaded songs in their com~...
Wait.
Does that mean possessing of downloaded songs oso means that u can get fined?!
Dang~.Wah...if that's the case, anyhow check a person's mp3 on the street~, oso can find liao sia~...lol~
Right?
I mean, lol~..then Creative and Apple's Ipod both die liao loh~...Of coz, both company will not say anything lahz~... but surely one lahz~... their product, the
MP3's players, are revolving around, of coz, mp3s lahz~...lol~ (*So are the newly function phones' wif mp3 function~...)Sia lahz~... not that i can reli make a stand bout this lahz~... law izz law~...
Juz another morning~....
Yep~...juz another morning~.
LoL~, juz blogging cause i realise that there are ppl frequenting my blog, so~...will kinda be better if i blog~... (even if i have nthing much to cover on) =)
Btw, my blog's birthday was like 20 days ago~...lol~, on the 26th of July!!!
There goes another year~... hey, kinda interesting to read back on wat one had wrote in the past~...tt's wat i like about writing things, and then going back to read abt them~...it's really interesting to see the things that happen and have flashback over them~...
I'm now in teh student council again~....but makes me wonder shld i stay in it anot~...i mean, hey, it's gd review~...and definetly a plus for getting a scholarship~, but man~...it sure izz gonna take alot of my time~...plus...loL~, thinking abt the discipline part~...not onli wif myself~...(*ya noe, studs, rings, hair kinda thingy~) and of coz the student's discipline~....loL~... even the president also told us not to confront students~... which is of coz, common sensical~...lol~.
I donno...if i wanna stay there, i'm aiming for at least a position~, plus i wanna concentrate on my studies too~...i tink i will likely continue my studies in ITE instead of going poly...heyhey~, don tink it's ez for me here~...of coz, poly's work are harder~, but it's not ez here too~... =)
Aiming for LKY's Award~... lol~...so good luck to myself!!!
Happy (Belated) National Day!!!!
*This can be QUITE a long post~...YaY~!
Happy B'Dae, Singapore~!!!
Lol~...izzit juz me or do i feel that i really am blogging abt birthdays~?!
I mean,
Look!!! Last 2 post oso abt ppl's birthday~!!!(Lol~...maybe shld juz change the URL of site to iLOVEbirthday.blogspot.com~) =)
Alrite~, back to topic~...
(*Lol, dunno where to start~...i noe someone hoping tt i post abt outing wif her [and wif 2 others] first~....{look at tagboard!!!})
Nah, no can do~... sorry~...
J*~ (*This izz to keep the identification of that person's identity confidential, in case
SHE don wan ppl to noe who she izz~) [*i very auto one!!!] =)
Ok~... so let's start wif Sunday~!!!
Lol~...shi*.... ha~...forgot wat happen liao~... (serious.)
Funny me sia~...ha, always got VERY short term memory....makes me wonder~
Alrite~...i'll juz get on to Monday~!!!
So, school was celebrating National Day, yeah...entertain us wif boring speech and wif only ONE group performing two seperated dance in btw a video created by students frm our school~... kinda stupid i muz say, coz outside at our amphitheater, ppl were like dancing?! Hip-hop, break dance, cha cha~...i tink alot of dances loH! and they juz entertain us wif that....why not invite those outside performing to perform for us~...
Well, the oonly nice thing was the video clip shown at the start abt Singapore~... yeah, tt was gd...make me feel so patronic~... And, the movie at the end. Titled, Remember The Titans. Very gd show i wld say... gd as in the meaning in the show~... yeah, very nice~.
Oh,, so i went to Esplanade after school~... as i wanted to get a new shoe, and my aunt told me sportslink had held some event there, wif discounts and stuff like that~... so, of coz, i visited it~.
AND GOT MYSELF A Adidas Tmac Low AT JUZ SIN$60!!!Totally awesome if i were to say~, wif the original price at $150 bucks~...
Lol~, no wonder singaporeans like to find sales and stuff lahz~... cannot blame them kiasu lahz... i understand, i now oso like to find sales those kinda thing and then got excuse to shop like crazy~... loL~
Went home after that to prepare myself to meet mabel, ying and jk later on~... but on my way out, i realise i
LOST MY EZLINK CARD AND LANYARD!!!! (Shld be) IN THE HOUSE!!!Still ain't able to find it even till now, which the current date/time izz 10/8/05, 0250... f* sia~...
Die tml~, take buz need my card, go school attendance oso need card~... sian~...
Anyway, juz borrow card frm aunt and then went on to meet those 3 to watch...
DIM SUM DOLLIES!!!!
LoL~, i LOVE THEM!!! (*Lots of thanks here to
JingYing for introducing me to the show~!!!)
Really gd comedians~... man, great jokes, great atmosphere (national day eve, remember?!) and great audience!!! =)
After that, the 3 of them went home, in which one return, (*JK) who later went wif me to meet Yu Cai, Charmaine, Wei Xin and Kar Liang to watch the fireworks for the countdown to National Day~... Alrite...nthing much thgh abt the fireworks~, nice izz nice ~... but nthing special~.
In which after, (due to my stupidity) i didn't go home wif the rest and act. walk with wei xin from Esp. all the way to Marina South!!!
ARGHZZZ!!!!!!! THE WALK!!!
We went all the way to near suntec, went up to the expressway, walk the whole stretch to Marina, and then from there proceed south~ to find his parents there, who were helping out in one of wei xin's relative stall~...
Lol~, end the night there by slping at wei xin's house~. =)
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Ha~, Alrite...till here.... makes me wonder shld i continue~.... ha~...
Well, here's a bookmark to help!!! (Juz in case [Plus i tink it makes my blog more pretty!!!])
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Day 2 (Tuesday lahz!!! Day 2 wat! 1 = Monday...7 = Sunday, ok?!)
Started the day in Xin's house~... had some noodles wif egg (* made by me!) as lunch~... (woke up at 1.30pm~...lol)... while waiting for xin to iron my clothes which he help me wash yesterday~...(Thanks!)
Met Cx and went over to town meet the blogger's community ppl!!!
YeP! Our first meeting!!!
(Thgh 2 of our members can't make it~...[not including the one in Aust. !!!])
Lol~, met Melvin while we were waiting for him under the "Please do not wait here" sign~... loL!!! (*hopefully Faust wld post that pic up~!!!)
Met up wif Qian Bei and Desmond after that~!
(*Cool, QB reborn her hair~, lol, look so different frm the QB i noe that always try to counsel me~... lol~...)
So, we walk around at first, b4 we decided to have dinner at this restaurant i tink, named Imperial Restaurant... which gives this chinese kinda feeling~... Great La Mian, and my love for the Xiao Long Bao remains the same!!! I Luv Them!!!
Went over to get JingYing and Mabel to meet with us while i was having my Almond Longan Jelly dessert!!!
Lol, didn't noe Mabel oso will get shy one...lol~... thgh apprantly like everyone there noes Mabel whilst
JY appears to be well, not as well known to ther rest... lol, to tink i always thgt that JingYing izz those very well-known one~...lol~... well, guess i'm wrong~ =)
We hurried over to Esplanade juz in time to catch the fireworks!!!!
MY GODS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THEY WERE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL FIREWORKS I HAVE SEEN!!!!!!!!
WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE IT~!!
Lol~, yeah...i', not exageratting~...it's reli beautiful~... gd enuf to commerate the 40th birthday of our country~... =)
Yeah, juz alil' comment - I'm real damn proud of my country, Singapore. Yeah, make me feel so damn proud. (*Even wif all those must follow rules and fines and Ah Bengs and Ah Lian [Young Idiots]) I mean, if u reli tink, for Singapore to hold such power and authority in the world and in just 40 years, it izz really a VERY GREAT achivement~. Yeah, feel god damn proud to be know i was born here, in this place, Singapore, my motherland. =)
Oh, continuing~... JY and Mabel then went to find Bling, (*Lol, tink she miss the fireworks) to go Kbox, and i continue to hang on wif the bloggers~... in which we headed over to coffeclub to juz slack there~... and wif SOME racists jokes... ha~... great one, i muz say~!!! Ha~, funny thinking abt it~...lol~!
After that, we went our seperate ways, and here i am, blogging~... lol~...
Yeah, tink i wld stop here, tml still got school, and java test~... sian~...lol~, tink my blog's bdae coming up soon~, (*or it's over liao~..lol)
Alrite, Happy National Day!!! (Again) =)
